It's about time

It's been an embarrassingly long time since I've written anything and I have plenty of really good excuses, but now that things have slowed down (for the next 2 hours), I'll catch up. I'm officially an employed adult complete with medical benefits (that I have yet to use because I'm kind of still in disbelief that I have actual medical benefits like normal people). Other than that, I haven't really been an adult in other parts of my life. I'm never home enough to actually do anything adultish. With one exception, I'm officially in a relationship. And I'm happy about it. I actually like him. A lot. I even like being around him on a regular basis. This has never been the case before. Not sure why that didn't seem odd to me in the past that I always felt the need to be not where my boyfriends were. Anyway, it's been quite an adjustment for me internally. Being happy is foreign territory and I wasn't accepting it very willingly. I was very reluctant to being happy and being with someone else who made me happy in spite of myself. It's so much easier to be miserable and alone. Having had years and years of practice, I had grown accustom to and found a sense of comfort in my bubble of misery and solitude. This whole happy thing is way better though. And the food is better. It's taken me a long time, but it was worth the wait :::insert giant cheesy grin here:::

My heart is going to explode

At work we have this super cool espresso machine. It's shiny and pretty and has buttons on it. Naturally, I must touch it and play with it and make espresso come out of it. Those tiny little cups of espresso are frustrating though. They're just so tiny! Problem solved! I've started making 4 espressos at a time in 1 cup. It's like a regular sized cup of coffee! Except for that it's not and when consumed in conjunction with half of one's body weight in jelly beans, the end result is eyelids that don't work right. They refused to close. Oh and I didn't just have the one quad espresso. No, oh no, I had two. In a row. Because I'm retarded, that's why.

#792 on the list of things to do

I'm kind of an adult these days. Yay me! Two years of wallowing, baking, and bitching has finally paid off. OK, maybe not paid off. Usually, this is where I dissect every emotion to reflect on what has happened and the implications on the future, but to be honest, I just don't have the time or the energy. I'm exhausted and I'm happy about it. I'm working all the time and I have no life. I wouldn't change a thing about it right now. I had no life before either, but at least now I'm being productive. I'm exhausted. Exhausted and fairly pleased with life at the moment. It's not perfect, but I can work with this. Maybe later I'll find the time to be still and think and write about how good I feel right now. It'll have to be #793 on my list of things to do.

Slow Cooked Failure

My brother got me a slow cooker for Christmas. After 3 hours at the book store, I finally found a slow cooker cookbook I thought sounded good. I went and bought a ton of groceries thinking I was going to have all these great meals for the week. I made a red curry potato thing that was decent and then after that is was a major crash and burn. I'm not sure what happened between adding everything to the pot and opening it up after the allotted time, but somehow oatmeal, meatballs, meatloaf, and brown rice all came out inedible. How? It's a slow cooker. I didn't do anything to it! I'm trying this pasta free lasagna thing, which as I write it, doesn't really sound like it's going to be successful, but I'm trying to stay optimistic about it.

February is Julia Appreciation Month

Yup, that's right, Julia Appreciation Month. There's a whole blog about it (this one) and t-shirts (ok, maybe no t-shirts). What else do you need to make something official? Maybe a parade? It can be arranged. So this year is special for 5 tiny little reasons. This February, a bunch of my friends got together and made me some minions. Ok, not got together, they just all decided to go out and multiply (not with each other) in order to make me my very own mini me army. I feel so loved! I really do appreciate their efforts. The timing really is just astounding. I don't know how they all managed to do it, but I'm super excited about it. Here's the list of February/Pisces babies that I have claimed as mine! I love each of them to the moon and back even though I've yet to meet them all.

Real name/Julia name

Ava/Ava Julia

Alexander/Julian

Jacob/Julio Kim Jong-il

Aaron/Julian Chill Factor

David Daniel/J'David J'Daniel

And coming soon will be Wendel Julio S.!!

This auntie's been a very busy bee working hard to get a uniform fund going for all of you. Everyone needs to get outfitted with black stretchy pants, black hoodies, ugg boots and custom nikes.

So annoyed...

I want so bad to wake up one morning and be like, yay, everything's wonderful and I'm happy and ok with everything even though it's not perfect. Yet I know that's completely ridiculous. Yet, there are other people whom I loath who seem to be doing exactly that all the time. It is so annoying! It's got to be me. There has to be something innately wrong with me that I can't fix or find. I'm still angry and frustrated, but in different ways than before. But it's still anger and frustration regardless. Maybe I need a nap. I refuse to blame it on the rain. Though I will if the inside of my car ends up mysteriously wet again when all the windows are closed.

New Year's Day 2011

Wow, this is my third New Year post. I started reflecting on the past year, butI was having a hard time being positive. I've been fighting off a sinus infection for the past couple days. It's resulted in a lot of nose blowing and trouble breathing. I've been grumpy. I've decided to reconsider the reflection process until after I feel better. Since I screwed up last year and didn't make it out to the beach I felt I really needed to do it this year. Of course, I was doing I don't know what all day and didn't end up going to out to the beach until sunset. I still got a few cool pictures. It was a lovely, crisp day much like last year. It's been raining and windy, resulting in bright, cold sunny days.I zipped up my jacket and rode out to the end of the jetty and this is what I ended up with. Then I started playing with my new app and had fun doing that in the dark at the end of the jetty. It's the little things. Plus, I'm pretty sure there's been a lack of oxygen to my brain in the past few days.